From a very tender age, I wanted to become a researcher. Now, after many years working as a professional researcher as an astrophysicist, I truly believe that God called me to be where I am today, and that I just did the footwork under his gentle and kind guidance – not to become a scientist specifically, but simply to walk the path that he has chosen for me, wherever it might lead.
For many years I did my job by investing as much time into accomplishing my professional responsibilities. I am sad to say that I did not give much time to prayer and spiritual work. I took the Lord for granted and did not think much about the labor I need to accomplish as a part of my spiritual journey.
When I developed a certain bodily illness, I began to realize that I am not the one in control of my life, and that my soul was in need of healing even more than my body. So, things have changed, and by the grace of God, he has ‘lifted me from my despair, that I may be vigilnt and glorify his might.’[1]
Now, my priority is God, and the work is just one of many pieces in my life on my spiritual journey. At work I try to maintain an awareness of God at all times. I do “derail” often, but with the help of my spiritual father and teachers, my brothers and sisters in the Church, and especially in preparation for and during confession, I realize how far I have gone, and try to return to the right path.
My profession involves the study of the Universe; it is a great gift from God to be able to see glimpses of the beauty of His Creation, and I try to describe this to others. I think that is the nature and the role of my profession. In addition to my formal professional job, I have the opportunity to teach at a private school run by my Church, where I try to teach the beauties of God’s Universe to children. I also give public talks whenever possible.
The greatest joy is discovering new things about the Universe—when, by the grace of God, the curtain is lifted and I can see and discover a few things not previously known (to us humans). But this involves a lot of work, and certainly a spiritual struggle. Trying not to live two lives – one professional and one spiritual – is not easy, at least for me. In my research there are often times that I “forget” that I am working with human beings (brothers and sisters). “Another deadline” and “publish quickly (and be first)” are not always the best ways to induce a spiritual peace and closeness to the teachings of the Lord.
It is a constant struggle, with the hope and prayer that one learns from one’s mistakes and tries to change. My faith is the thing that helps me see where I am, and where I should be, by the grace of God.